I want to be stronger, I want to look stronger
I want to be better, a better person with less anger
I want to be smarter, but I don’t want to know everything

I want to be away, and that’s what I’m gonna do

gue bingung harus mulai darimana. seminggu ini padat rasanya haha. hm kelas ielts gue udah selesai, padahal gue dapet kelas yang cukup menarik haha. orang-orangnya macem2 background-nya. and I met nadia’s ex haha what a coincidence.

terus gue dapet pinjeman dvd supernatural dari naldri, yah biarpun bayar tapi okelah kalo dari season 1-4.

gue akan ke bangka (and it’s gonna be a lot better than BALI), semoga jadi liburan yang menyenangkan deh amin.

what I want for holiday:
- DVD supernatural marathon
- masak2 bareng garini
- pengen nonton film yang bagus
- pengen beli CD impian, pgn belanja sih hahah
- LAM to the URU; it’s been a year since that day
- bertemu teman2 lama : )
- potong rambut, capek punya rambut panjang

dan gue baru aja nginep di rumah nadia, akhirnya setelah lebih dari setaun. banyak banget ya ceritanya hahaha. dan nonton planet 51. trust me, it’s not even worth your 25thousand.

hmmm gue baru saja mendengar monkey to millionaire (i have heard their name before, but never listen to their song) di trax yg lagu strange is the song in our conversation and totally love it!
dan jadi ikut mendengar the trees and the wild, tika n dissidents (bener ga), endah n rhesa, polyester embassy and they are greaaaaaat. jadi pengen beli CDnya hahah.

Thank God, Alhamdulillah I’ve passed the paper-presentation test! Yeah! the teachers did ask a few question, but I can answered the question really well. and yeah I have to add a little bit of something to my paper, on the other language called revision. hm but that’s okay, the bottom line is I have passed the test!

And so is the PE exam. I’m doing just fine, not that great, but fine. and another thing to do is IELTS. I am taking a workshop now, actually it started on monday and still going on until thursday. and the test itself will be held on January the ninth. I can tell you what, my english is terrible. Reading, speaking, writing, listening, you name it, I am not good enough. I just can’t get accross my mind clearly, so yeah it’s hard but hopefully I can make it!

My IELTS score must be at least 6, so that I can apply to Netherland.

uas sudah berlalu, nilai biasa saja. besok ujian kartul, doakan ya.

menemukan oase baru hahaha

akhir-akhir ini hidup gue lagi nggak seru. sangat. tidak. seru. nggak ada apa apa, nggak ada kejadian yang perlu diingat. cuman gitu gitu aja. so, gue juga bingung mau nulis apa. yah quick updates aja ya, hm gue lagi UAS—ujian akhir semester. males banget belajar. mau ada ujian karya tulis, gue belom bikin setitik pun slide shownya. apalagi ga ada siapa2 yang bikin hidup gue berwarna (haha) abis yang lain pada sibuk belajar sih.

mungkin hidup gue dan blog gue (ya, hidup gue sama dengan blog gue) akan begini sampai dua minggu ke depan, abu-abu. hahaha melankolis banget deh. tau ah.

Dear Andra, I’m not asking this directly to you but I hope you don’t mind I reposted your post. Because pretty much I am agree with Andra, although it’s not the exact circumstances that I had, but losing friends—changing the way you act to them, the way you talk to them (and also pretend that nothing happened, or said that it was just ‘normal’ thing) really is the worst feeling in the world:

The best feeling in the world is being a (best) friend for someone. And yes, it’s so much better than having one. The pleasure of being trusted, loving, and getting the chance to understand others is all there. What’s the use of having a friend when they don’t consider you as one? Being a friend of someone means someone considers you as one and so do you. But if you feel like you have a friend, it doesn’t always mean that they place you the same way.

One of the worst feelings in the world is losing a friend -from someone you’ve just known to daily buddies. I think it’s explanatory enough.

well what’s the matter with being positive? I am still trying to be the one, I just wanna share that losing friends is the worst feeling in the world, but I will get by, for sure.

worth seeing movie! thumbs up!!!
Quentin Tarantino really did a good job!

Quentin Tarantino cool abis deh, I love you. bingung juga nulisnya, pokoknya filmnya super duper bagus. actionnya dapet, komedinya dapet. cool deh. ada percakapan-percakapan panjang dan intensif khas nya Quentin, which I found it interesting but my friends said it was boring. Jadi pengen nonton filmnya Quentin yang lain deh. oh iya mau ada Kill Bill: vol. 3 loh! tapi masih lama abis keluarnya.

Brad Pitt nya super ganteng, aktingnya oke banget ; ) well sebenernya semua aktor yang main disini jago-jago! haha. karakternya dapet banget, film nya jadi seru banget, intens, nggak gampang ditebak, dan endingnya cukup bagus.
favorite scene: ketika basterds lagi nyamar jadi tentara nazi, duduk di bar yang penuh dengan tentara nazi beneran, akhirnya penyamarannya terbongkar, dan satu ruangan itu semuanya menodongkan pistol satu sama lain dan saling menembak (terjadi tembak menembak yang super cepat—benar2 super, cepat) dannnnn lihat saja sendiri. : )

And meet my new idol,

Melanie Laurent as Shosanna Dreyfus;
she really nailed this film!

and this is the poster:

(sorry, that’s spanish)
but I like this one better:

I wanna meet someone new, someone fresh, someone out of the box, someone down the road, someone adorable, someone reliable;

……and he will shakes my hand, we will say each other name. and we’re just two ordinary people who wants to know each other, better.

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After that indescribably conversation, I have been trying to hold my tears up, but I failed. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to feel. I need some more time to get over it.
Well, it turns out that it’s not that long, yes I have decided to let go, to get over it, to forgive, now. My confusion ended just then, when I talked to one of my good friends, Reszki Hanitra. I didn’t tell him the exact problems, but he really gave me a good advice. I can tell you, he is the most positive person I’ve ever met. He said that maybe I was too sensitive—which is true btw, and he said that my life would be miserable if I am a sensitive person. So yeah, I’ll try to be a positive person. Nothing in life should be taken for granted, right?

Happy birthday to my blog! You are 2 years old now! hahahaha
and to my brother, best wishes for you; people said: Life starts at 21.
hm you’re already a man now, i guess.

I just miss you, brother. You don’t know how annoying now my little sister is. oh yeah, it’s yours!

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I got flu. : (

DAN HARI INI ADA IKLAN GREENDAY AKAN KE SINGAPOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

JENG JENG JENNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I NOW PRESENT YOU…………………………. (proudly, of course)

“Pengaplikasian Microsoft Access 2003 dalam Pembuatan Database OSIS Diwakara Balasena”

YES! YOU’RE RIGHTTTTTTTT KARYA TULIS GUE SELESAAAAAAAAAAAAI!
akhirnya dikumpulin juga, hari ini; 29 Oktober 2009. setelah banyyyyyak banget hambatan yang ada, gue ga tau deh gue kena curse apa, ilang berkali2 datanya.
dan gue nggak mau kenal yang namanya Microsoft Access lagi. eneg gue sama access. hahaha

well, gue mencoba untuk jadi positive person, and better person of course. dengan percaya bahwa something good will happen to you if you did good things first.