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I want to be stronger, I want to look stronger
I want to be better, a better person with less anger
I want to be smarter, but I don’t want to know everything
I want to be away, and that’s what I’m gonna do
Dear Andra, I’m not asking this directly to you but I hope you don’t mind I reposted your post. Because pretty much I am agree with Andra, although it’s not the exact circumstances that I had, but losing friends—changing the way you act to them, the way you talk to them (and also pretend that nothing happened, or said that it was just ‘normal’ thing) really is the worst feeling in the world:
The best feeling in the world is being a (best) friend for someone. And yes, it’s so much better than having one. The pleasure of being trusted, loving, and getting the chance to understand others is all there. What’s the use of having a friend when they don’t consider you as one? Being a friend of someone means someone considers you as one and so do you. But if you feel like you have a friend, it doesn’t always mean that they place you the same way.
One of the worst feelings in the world is losing a friend -from someone you’ve just known to daily buddies. I think it’s explanatory enough.
well what’s the matter with being positive? I am still trying to be the one, I just wanna share that losing friends is the worst feeling in the world, but I will get by, for sure.
worth seeing movie! thumbs up!!!
Quentin Tarantino really did a good job!

Quentin Tarantino cool abis deh, I love you. bingung juga nulisnya, pokoknya filmnya super duper bagus. actionnya dapet, komedinya dapet. cool deh. ada percakapan-percakapan panjang dan intensif khas nya Quentin, which I found it interesting but my friends said it was boring. Jadi pengen nonton filmnya Quentin yang lain deh. oh iya mau ada Kill Bill: vol. 3 loh! tapi masih lama abis keluarnya.

Brad Pitt nya super ganteng, aktingnya oke banget ; ) well sebenernya semua aktor yang main disini jago-jago! haha. karakternya dapet banget, film nya jadi seru banget, intens, nggak gampang ditebak, dan endingnya cukup bagus.
favorite scene: ketika basterds lagi nyamar jadi tentara nazi, duduk di bar yang penuh dengan tentara nazi beneran, akhirnya penyamarannya terbongkar, dan satu ruangan itu semuanya menodongkan pistol satu sama lain dan saling menembak (terjadi tembak menembak yang super cepat—benar2 super, cepat) dannnnn lihat saja sendiri. : )
And meet my new idol,

Melanie Laurent as Shosanna Dreyfus;
she really nailed this film!

and this is the poster:

(sorry, that’s spanish)
but I like this one better:

I wanna meet someone new, someone fresh, someone out of the box, someone down the road, someone adorable, someone reliable;

……and he will shakes my hand, we will say each other name. and we’re just two ordinary people who wants to know each other, better.
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After that indescribably conversation, I have been trying to hold my tears up, but I failed. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to feel. I need some more time to get over it.
Well, it turns out that it’s not that long, yes I have decided to let go, to get over it, to forgive, now. My confusion ended just then, when I talked to one of my good friends, Reszki Hanitra. I didn’t tell him the exact problems, but he really gave me a good advice. I can tell you, he is the most positive person I’ve ever met. He said that maybe I was too sensitive—which is true btw, and he said that my life would be miserable if I am a sensitive person. So yeah, I’ll try to be a positive person. Nothing in life should be taken for granted, right?

Happy birthday to my blog! You are 2 years old now! hahahaha
and to my brother, best wishes for you; people said: Life starts at 21.
hm you’re already a man now, i guess.
I just miss you, brother. You don’t know how annoying now my little sister is. oh yeah, it’s yours!
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I got flu. : (
DAN HARI INI ADA IKLAN GREENDAY AKAN KE SINGAPOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
I know my header is….zonk
yeah for some reason I saved it to the wrong format, my bad.
well today is a bad day because one and other things, I couldn’t go to urbanfest 2009 at ancol. hm I don’t wanna talk about it again.
my day is grey until I have an interesting conversation with Bagus Joko, about our dreams, how are we gonna reach it and our willing to get them!
I’ve been listening to Hellogoodbye’s song since i was in junior highschool, until now i still love them. their song really is a mood booster, because they wrote happy songs haha. i haven’t checked for their updates for a loooong time; so a couple days ago I began to search for the updates. then I opened their my space and website and……I fall in love with them. again.
Their latest EP, when we first met, really is a good song. and I love the way Forrest loves his gf, chelsea. he’s so sweet huhuhu. haha hmmm such a happy couple. well you should check them out. I saw their photos, read their journal, and of course listened to their music yesterday, and it was really turn me on. haha.
and I wanna be like them. live a happy life, and having fun!
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what I did on the weekend:
I tried to finish my paper work. and I wrote almost 20 pages—well most of them are pictures haha. and I’d been sitting for 4-6 hours a day, so yeah it’s frustating. and it’s not finish……yet. : (
I got my pre report card and it’s goooooooood! it’s not great, but it’s not bad, and it’s good (Y). sekarang gue baru percaya kalo 99% effort itu berlaku. sejak kelas dua gue udah ngga percaya hukum itu berlaku, kayanya dulu tuh kalo kelas 2, 5% effort 95% hoki atau nyontek. sekarang gue yakin kalo gue bisa, gue bisa kalo gue mau.
udah lama sih sebenernya temen2 gue membicarakan ttg omegle. tapi tadi gue baru nyoba dan ternyata seru juga haha. hm biarpun ada yang zonk aneh2 gitu. tapi lumayan lah buat menghilangkan bosan. setelah berbicara dengan dua orang tidak jelas, untungnya orang ketiga nggak aneh2. dia orang belanda, tinggal deket breda lupa gue nama kotanya susah. masih kls 3 juga, mau jadi dokter katanya mau kuliah di ams. well goodluck stranger! haha
terus ada lagi anak umur 15 dari korea, jelek banget bahasa inggrisnya haha. jadi mesti nebak2 maksutnya apa.
